Skye's Losin' It!

Realization

2010-03-19T18:43:00.000-07:00

I need to do this right. I was using the master cleanse for ALL the wrong reasons. So there's no way I could have completed it at this point in my journey. I realized for once though, that I need to do this the right way for once. So I'm doing it.

I was 190.2lbs this morning. So that will be my starting weight. And I am going to be reasonable with myself for pretty much the first time ever. I need to be. I need to do this right, and I need to change my life. So here goes nothing.

SW - 190.2
GW - 145

I decided to make my goal weight 145 for now, because that will be me in the healthy range for my BMI. I will adjust it from there based on how I feel. And I'm going to reward myself in 10% incriments of my weight loss. I haven't extablished how I will reward myself yet, but I will find a way... maybe a mani/pedi... facial... movie night... we'll see! :) So every 4.5lbs is 10% of the way to my weightloss goal.

10% - 185.7lbs
20% - 181.2lbs
30% - 176.7lbs
40% - 172.2lbs
50% - 167.7lbs
60% - 163.2lbs
70% - 158.7lbs
80% - 154.2lbs
90% - 149.7lbs
100% - 145lbs!!

So it won't be so bad!! I can definitely do this. I have started a new account on spark people, BECOMINBARBIE, so add me if you'd like! I could use as much support as I can get. I'm going to be tracking my calories. And sticking to the spark people exercise plan.

Okay well, I'm sleepy... the Tylenol Cold medicine is kicking in. Night night!

Weigh-In

2010-03-18T07:45:00.000-07:00

189.4 this morning! I know that it's mostly water weight right now. But it's still nice to be out of the 190's. My realy goal though, is to be under 180's! I haven't seen the 170's in awhile and would like to take a visit on the way through to the 160's! lol.

Today hasnt been good so far though, I woke up later, and then got busy with the kids... so I havent had anything yet. I'm just waiting for my tea to steep. My one ear is completely plugged up, and I have a headache forming... boo :(

Oh well... yay for detox! lol.

I'll write more later!

Day 1 of 40

2010-03-17T16:52:00.001-07:00

Well I made it through day one, with only one moment where I felt weak, but I overcame it. It's such a rush to overcome weakness... it just makes me want to keep pushing on. I still feel yucky from this cold... but it's all good.

My starting weight for the cleanse was 195.4lbs

I'll be weighing myself in every morning to track my progress. And I'll note any symptoms or feelings I have.

Love Skye

All over the Map

2010-03-17T05:13:00.001-07:00

So I woke up today, feeling just good enough to start. And I think I need to start today to give me extra help fighting off this stupid cold. Plus Dan is back today, so I'll have a little more me time.

I'm ready for this. I can do this. I am strong, and have a strong will. I can last 40 days. I will feel SO healthy when I'm done, and every day my body will become more and more pure and clean.

I don't think I mentioned, this is my transition into a strict Vegan diet. I've been a vegetarian now for 6 months... and I'm ready to make this change. In 40 days, my body should be clean and clear of all addictions to food, and sugars. Cheese is my major weakness that I need to overcome... I was eating a Vegan diet for a month and a half, and cheese did me in.

So here's to a new me. A new stronger, healthier, me.

Love Skye

Putting it off a few Days

2010-03-16T04:22:00.001-07:00

So my cleanse isn't going to start probably until Thursday. I am so sick right now. I have a severe head cold, and spent last night getting sick. And today the coughing started. Usually I'd just start it, because it will help clear up the cold, but Im watching my friends kids right now, and the detox, plus the cold, plus the kids, will be WAY too much to handle. So I'm just pro-longing it a few days.

I hope everyone else is doing great on their weightloss journeys.

Love Skye

Quick Update

2010-03-15T09:47:00.000-07:00

I actually decided to start my cleanse tomorrow for a personal reason, so it'll run from tomorrow until April 24th. :)

Master Cleanse: Day 1

2010-03-15T07:29:00.000-07:00

I've started my second Master Cleanse today. Im going to try to go for 40 days, but I'm also going to judge it on how my body is feeling. I may stop sooner, but my goal is 40 days. That would mean my last day would be on April 23rd.

So far I'm feeling okay. I've got a cold, so hopefully I can kick my cold in the first few days.

If anyone needs any information about the master cleanse, or has any questions let me know. :)

-Skye

Motivation

2010-03-15T06:31:00.000-07:00

I think everyone has that motivation that really shouldnt be there motivation, it isn't exactly a "healthy" motivation... but it's there. Whether it be a reunion coming up, that you want to prove to everyone you're not just that fat girl from highschool, or that skinny girl in the magazine that you want to look just like, or that killer dress that didn't come in your size.. or maybe you want to feel good on a beach for once... or for the worst reason of all... a boy. Mine... is a bit of everything... but mostly the latter.

I think it's widely expected for us to say we're doing it for our health... but Im not going to lie... my health is probably the last thing on my mind at the moment. Now, I may get people critisizing me for that, but I've spent so many year lying to myself about my eating habits, and the fact that I'm overweight, that I need to put a stop to all of it.

I am going to say, the biggest reason why I'm losing weight is for a boy. Now, it's not for a boy who won't love me unless I'm skinny... but for a boy that saw me skinny the last time, and when I see him this summer I want to be smokin hot. He's the love of my life, and my best friend. And he doesn't know it yet (the love part) but I'm going to make sure he knows.

So that's my main reason. I do have many other smaller reasons that I'll explain over time. But he (and we'll call him Mr. Brown-Eyes) is my #1 reason.

2010-01-20T20:05:00.001-08:00

8 days on the master cleanse.. I feel sooooo great!!!!

Love Skye

Location:8th day!!

2010-01-17T19:50:00.001-08:00

On the master cleanse!! I can't believe it. And I feel sooooooo good! I would recommend this to anyone! Days almost over... Yay for day 6!

Love Skye

Location:5th day...

Updatin'

2009-12-12T07:33:00.001-08:00

Hey guys,

So other than the midnight run to mcdonald with my damn skinny friend last night... Yesterday was great. I went to the gym, and even with the cheeseburger, I think I was still within my calories. I think i'm going to start tracking my calories more... It definitely helps, I find.

I went hard at the gym. I'm back on the couch to 5k program. I'm starting all the way over tho. And then I did some squats on the wall with a yoga ball, 3 sets of 20, and 3 sets of 20 sit ups on the ball. And then cooled down with tons of stretching and a little bit of yoga.

Oh and posted a new video yesterday! My videos are going to be sucky and unedited for awhile, but at least they'll be there!

I'm keeping my weightloss goal a secret for now, I read in a magazine, that statistics show, that broadcasting your goal to the world gives you a false sense of accomplishment... So i'm not posting my current weight or anything... I'll just let you guys know my weekly pounds lost.

Hope everyone is doing well!!

Love Skye

Location:Edmonton

Getting Real

2009-12-04T07:40:00.000-08:00

This is Skye today. This is not going to be Skye anymore. Bye bye old Skye. Hello newwww me!! I'm going to post a pic every Friday. So I can see my progress.

Love Skye

2009-12-03T17:12:00.001-08:00

I'm in a tanning bed as I write this lol. Skye is crazy!! I need to make a commitment to myself right now. I need to take control of my life... I am missing out on way too much!! I want to wear a bikini in Cancun, I want to feel pretty and desirable... I want to love myself.

I am going back to the weekly videos. I need to make this change, and make it for good. And I need help! Anyone need a motivation buddy?!

Love yas
Skye

Skye Sucks MAJORLY

2009-11-25T19:44:00.000-08:00

Okay so that boy I waa*waa'd about... is back in my life! It's still terribly confusing and new... but I think maybe just maybe he's the one I'm going to marry someday.

It's his fault that I've been distracted. I'm not making any excuses. I do suck. I haven't gained at all though, just maintained, so it's not so bad. I do want to get back into being more consistent, and making videos again. But it's so hard without my own computer. It sucks A LOT actually. But apparently I'm getting one for Christmas from the sounds of it... YAY.

OH, and my hair is daaaark now! I will have to make a video soon. I hope everyone is doing GREAT on their weightloss journies. I'm going to check in on some videos tonight!

Love you all, don't give up on me!

Skye

2009-11-11T11:41:00.001-08:00

I'm having a really hard time with this ex-bf thing... I've seen him a few times in the last week... And i don't want to hurt again.

Love Skye

2009-11-02T23:21:00.001-08:00

I know my blog sucks muchly lately and I'm sorry!! I hope you all are doing amazingly... I'm just finding updating and vids hard having lost my laptop in the fire. I'm hoping to get my stuff back up and running soon.

Oh, and I love him. Bleh.

Love Skye

I'm a busy girl.

2009-10-20T11:56:00.000-07:00

I've been doing sooo great. I just wanted to say. 1 week Vegan today, and I'm looooving it.

Love Skye

Skinny Bitch

2009-10-14T13:50:00.001-07:00

I bought the audible.com version of 'Skinny Bitch' for my iPhone. What an eye opener. Definitely a must read. I kind of like the audible version because the tone & inflection really does make a difference. But I suggest either way works better for you... It will make you think twice about what you put in your mouth.

Love Skye

SOoooOoo... A CHALLENGE!

2009-10-14T02:07:00.000-07:00

I have been challenged by a friend, she doesn't think that I can go Vegan for 3 months without slipping up. WELL, aside from the obvious health benefits of that challenge... I AM STUBBORN. And when people tell me I can't do something, I do it. So here I am.... doing it. Starting in the morning (well I guess it's already officially started). I am definitely going to try and document as much of this experience as possible on here. And on youtube as well. So the 3 months starts today (October 14, 2009) and my last day would be January 13, 2009. I'm not going to make any promises on how I'm going to feel after the 3 months, but from what I've read, I'm guessing it's a transition I won't go back on after the 3 months.

ALSO, started reading (uhhh, well okay, listening to the audible version of) Skinny Bitch. SO FAR, love it!! It's something I definitely needed. And the audible version is really neat because there's some really good tone & inflection, and it really gets the point across.

Anyways, must get to bed, it's 3:14am.

Much Love,
Skye

Discouragement.

2009-10-10T19:10:00.000-07:00

I've had a terrible week when it comes to weight loss, fitness & eating. It has all been non-existent... well except for eating... that existed hardcore this week lol. But really, I'm not even going to try to sugarcoat this... as I type there is an empty bowl of popcorn LOADED with butter and dill pickle seasoning (HELLO SALT!), an empty can of gingerale (I DONT EVEN DRINK POP), an empty glass of chocolate milk (LOADED w/CHOCOLATE), an empty bowl from Lipton Sidekicks (CARRRBS), parmesan cheese (MORE CARBS), and a McDicks cup from yesterday (Yeah, I'm a dirty pig sometimes lol).

I am thinking about forcing myself to go weigh myself right now... cuz I won't be surprised if I'm back up in the 190's... and I'm sure that seeing that number might kick me right in the face... actually... yeah I'm going to... BRB...

Yep, just as I'd suspected... 192.9 :( BLEH. I just don't know how to keep myself on track lately. I've been terribly discouraged. And extremely distracted. I really feel like sometimes maybe I'm punishing myself. And sometimes I'm scared that I won't be able to hide behind this fat girl if I lose all the weight. I've gotten so used to it.

Another thing I kinda wanted to say, is that I've decided to quit sexy4santa. I don't really feel like it's what I need right now. The challenges have been a little weak, and I need to find something that is going to push and challenge me. I'm sure that they are great for other people, and that's awesome... but for me, where I am right now... I need a little push, maybe a little tough love... I can't do 'fluffy' right now.

Also, I think another thing I'm starting to notice about youtube, is the cliqueyness. There are aspects of it, and certain people, that just remind me about everything I hated about highschool... I feel like sometimes when I watch videos, it's really just people trying to upstage eachother, or the videos just don't seem genuine... almost like certain people are just trying to fit in... and not really using youtube to better themselves. MrRight41 actually got me thinking about that after watching one of his videos... and it's made me see youtube in a whole other light. I want to find a way to make youtube benefit me, and make videos to help others too. I'm going to cut out a lot of the people I'm subscribed to, so I can focus on the people that I feel will help me through my journey, and maybe maybe maybe I can find a way to help them too.

Anyways, I need to go clean up, my friends are coming over to chill in the hot tub with me. I hope everyone is doing great.

OH, and much love to Christina & Francesca... I'm so happy to have you guys on my side :)

Love Skye

There goes my life...

2009-10-07T17:56:00.001-07:00

I have no idea why that was the title to this. What I do know is that I have been such a fat cow lately. Someboy help... Motivation needed asap!!

Love Skye

I am sooo angry!!

2009-10-05T13:38:00.001-07:00

I just got screwed out of a deal for the 3rd time from our other store. And my GM isn't even sticking up for me. It's complete bullshit.

GAH!!! I sometimes hate my job and all of the bullshit that comes along with it.

Day 7: When you think Tim McGraw...

2009-10-04T20:52:00.000-07:00

So, I'm terribly emo today. That would be what that last post was about. A boy who was in my life for less than a year, and left just a quickly as he came into it. I know I shouldn't have him on my facebook anymore, I know it's not good for the healing process, but I can't help it. I broke up with him. I knew it was the right thing, but he was my first love, and it's so hard to let go of sometimes. Even now, 2 years later. I'm usually okay... I don't usually think of it. But every once in awhile a picture pops up, or our song comes on the radio. It just sends me spiralling downwards on this little emotional rollercoaster. He's in a relationship... I have been too in the past 2 years, but nothing meaningful or worthwhile... and I miss really silly things about our relationship. It makes me feel ridiculous sometimes. Love is a fickle thing.

ANYWAYS, enough of that. 1.5 posts about Skye's sad little heart is more than enough for now. I'm just going to cut to the chase...

I HAVE NOT BEEN EXERCISING, AND I'VE BEEN EATING LIKE A HEFER!! :(

I have however been maintaining my vegetarian diet, and enjoying Tofu like I never thought I would have before. If anyone has any neat ways to prepare Tofu, I would LOVE any suggestions that I can get. I'm loving it like whoa. Haha. And I'm really sure I'll be going Vegan in the enarish future. For many reasons. I am not going to preach or anything to anyone ever. This I vow! Lol. From what I've read, veganism... seems almost like religion haha. But it's all good. More than anything, I'm doing it for my health. But I'm not going to lie, the animals have a small part as well. Although don't worry... I'm not going to go all crazy and PETA on anyone haha.

Anyways, I gained 2 lbs this week : I am not proud to share that. But if I'm going to get real, I have to admit to my shortcomings as well. Everything isn't all butterflies and rainbows when it comes to weight loss.

I hope everyone else is doing amazingly! No food journal for the last few days... I've been stressed about moving my stupid ass of a horse, who refuses to get on a trailer... and everything else went to hell lol.

Love Skye

Everytime...

2009-10-04T20:45:00.000-07:00

Everytime I finally think I've forgotten the colour of his eyes... there they are, staring right through me.

How is it that you end a relationship with someone, spend so much time mad, angry, sad, and every other terrible emotion... and they move on. And you're left every so often with this small little hole, that doesn't seem to quite want to heal over. It's bareable on most good days, but every once in awhile, that little wound, that's almost healed right up... is ripped open, and there you are exposed to the world again.

Two years go by... This person hurt you, and it's almost shameful to miss it... but you do. Your first love. Does he ever go away? Or does he always have that little imprint on your heart? All the good days popping up in your memory from time to time. There were good days. Lots of good days. MOSTLY good days. But he was young, and he was stupid... and she was easy. And maybe I was young and stupid too. Maybe I still am?

When a relationship dies... do we ever really give up the ghost?

Day 4: Newww Clothes!

2009-10-01T22:20:00.000-07:00

Soooo, one great thing about today? I realized that my pants are getting too big!! I went shopping today... haul video tomorrow?! maaaybe lol.

A scene from the A-Team video is being filmed in our town this weekend, right now as we speak, Jessica Biel, Jim Carrey & Rampage Jackson are all in my tiny lil blip on the map town haha. Pretty sweet.

So this week has sucked so far for exercise. No excuses. Just sucked. Soooo, tomorrow I shall work out!! Haaard. Anyways, soooo tired. So here is my lil food diary for the day.

-tofu scramble (onions, 2 tbsp olive oil, mushrooms, 1/4 chunk of tofu, tumeric)
-fruit salad
-veggie wrap
-3/4 cup of pasta salad
-1/4 of a small chocolate chip cookie dough blizzard

then we went out for little brothers b-day and I was a pig.

-cactus cut potatoes
-cesar side salad
-individual veggie pizza
-1/2 of a bite-sized brownie

But I soooo don't feel guilty. I have really been doing sooo good!

Oh, and I didn't make the cut for One Step Closer. But I'm still glad I made the video, it was fun :)

Love Skye <3

TOFU!

2009-10-01T07:43:00.001-07:00

I just made a tofu scramble. My very first straight up tofu experience... because a smoothie didnt FULLY count <3

Day 3: One Step Closer

2009-09-30T22:26:00.001-07:00

I did my audition video for One Step Closer on youtube. I got it in right under the wire. I'm quite happy with it. I think it was decent. We'll see what happens though! I really hope I get chosen. I think this Channel could bring a lot of good to my weight loss :)

Anyways, today was a great day. I bought Tofu! So I'm going to cook that tomorrow! Yay. If anyone has any good tofu recipes, do tell :)

Anyways, another late night post, and I'm exhausted.

-oatmeal
-banana
-dairy queen side salad w/low fat ranch
-5 saltines
-tim hortons yogurt
-1 pita w/goat cheese, fresh basil, tomato & balsamic vinegar
-salad w/dried cranberries, pine nuts & goat cheese
-2 celery sticks w/peanut butter & raisins
-fruit bowl
-1.5 cups of Pineapple/OJ

No Exercise, I had too much to do after work tonight. OH, and I bought stuff for my horse! Yay. lol. I'm a dork.

Anyways, love yaz!
Skye

Day 2: The Worlds Best Muffin

2009-09-30T01:32:00.000-07:00

I kid you not, I had the best muffin I have ever had in my entire life this morning. It was from a small cafe here called The Bean Tree. It was orange/cranberry... and SOOOO amazing. I offset that fatty goodness with a green tea, instead of a latte like Sammi got.

Today was great allllll day, until I got home from the gym, and I ate probably 1/4 bag of Tostitos and probably a cup of Guacamole... no jokes lol. BUT, I still feel like for the most part I made healthy choices today. And I did Week 3:Day 3 of C25K... but Sammi missed one day, so I'll be doing another day, before moving on to week 4. So to sum up my eating today, and I'm not gunna be fancy about it (because I'm exhausted from nerding it up on the xbox! lol)...

-green tea (x2)
-orange cranberry muffin
-cream of mushroom cup-a-soup
-12 saltines
-1/2 peach
-15 almonds
-1 egg salad sandwich (leftovers)
-1/4 bag of Tostitos
-1 cup of Guacamole
-1 banana
-2 cups of OJ/Pineapple Juice mixed.

Exercise
-Week 3:Day 3 C25K
-5 minute warmup on treadmill
-12 minutes on the wave @ lvl's 6-9

Anyways guys, I hope everyone is doing great. And as of today, I still feel no great need for meat! :) I also did A LOT of research today on vegetarianism, and I'm liking the idea more and more by the day. I decided I want to make the video I was planning on making, into a small series of videos... so more to come on that soon :) It's a project in the works.

Love Skye

AWOL!

2009-09-30T01:30:00.001-07:00

Lol, so I just went entirely AWOL from Youtube, and my blog because I was...

PLAYING XBOX ONLINE WITH MY BOSS AND A CO-WORKER.

Lmfao, I was saving the world, one Zombie at a time.

I swear that was the ultimate nerdpoint of my entire life.

Haha, yup.

Day 1: Veggies & MmmM

2009-09-28T22:56:00.001-07:00

Haha, so it was my first official day of my 30 day vegetarian trial. It was SO easy. I feel great so far. I'm really happy about this transition, because I have been thinking a lot about it, for so long. I just don't have a need for meat in my life. And I also feel like it is going to make this way easier for me. As of right now, I am still eating eggs & dairy. I would be classified during these 30 days as a lacto-ovo vegetarian. Which is apparently a good first step.

Lacto-ovo vegetarians don’t eat beef, poultry, or fish, but do eat eggs and dairy products. (Similarly, lacto vegetarians consume dairy but not eggs while ovo vegetarians eat eggs but don’t consume dairy.)

So if I choose to continue on with vegetarianism after 30 days, I will move on to being a "lacto vegetarian", eliminating eggs from my diet. And I may slowly transition off of dairy as time goes by, but I'm not making any commitments past the 30 days as of yet.

As for my day, my food was pretty simple.

Breakfast

-Oatmeal

Snack

-Mini Carrots (approx 15)

-Large Cafe Mocha

Lunch

-Subway veggie salad (lettuce, tomatoes, green peppers, cucumbers, shredded cheese, sweet onion sauce)

Snack

-celery stick with peanut butter & raisins

Dinner

- 1.5 egg salad sandwiches

- tostitos & homemade guacamole

I was actually really proud of my day. Dinner may have been a little high fat, but I felt good about it. I took the night off from exercising, but I did end up doing some light exercise on the wii fit... nothing to really be proud of, but it was something to say the least.

I really wanted to make a video tonight, my veg one... but I got completely side tracked.

Anyways, I should probably sleep... I've become some what of a night owl, and that definitely needs to stop. Hope everyone else is doing well!!

Love Skye

Layout Change

2009-09-28T07:11:00.000-07:00

Lol, I messed something up, but I'll have to fix it after work. :)

Go Veg: 30 Day Challenge

2009-09-27T22:26:00.000-07:00

Okay, so first of all, I want everyone to know this is something I have put A LOT of thought into. This is a HUGE life decision, which is why I am calling it a 30 day challenge, instead of a complete life change. I am in no way doing this as an "animal rights activist", but as a health choice. I rarely eat meat as it is, because I just don't like it that much. I eat mostly chicken, but I have found all in all, the meals I do eat with chicken are... chicken nuggets, chicken balls, chicken sandwiches at restaurants, chicken pasta at Boston Pizza... none of which are good healthy choices. I cannot remember the last time I ate a meat dish that was healthy for me.

So I was looking at a link on Peta, about vegetarianism, and they had a 30 day Pledge to Go Veg that I decided to sign. What is 30 days in the long run, when it may have HUGE healthy lifestyle advantages to me. I just wanted to write a quick little blurb about this, because I started it today. I have also decided that in these 30 days, I will not be tracking my calories. I will continue to write down everything that goes into my mouth, but I'm not counting calories, while I make this transition.

Anyways, I should most definitely be sleeping right now. I am just going to finish posting my youtube video, and then it will be lights out for Skye.

Love You All!!

Skye
xoxo

Blog Change - Introduction

2009-09-27T16:00:00.000-07:00

So, after careful considerationg (okay not really) I have decided to change who I blog through. For some reason when I look at Blogspot, something more sophisticated comes to mind. Like, Blogspot is the place for all the great Bloggers... and livejournal is the place for 14 year old's with cutting problems? Haha, I'm sure that that may be completely out of line, but for some reason I just feel that I have outgrown livejournal. So here I am.

I am going to completely restart from the beginning, a fresh slate if you will. My name is Skye, and I'm a foodaholic. I'm also a newly founded gym-rat. A youtuber. A horseback rider. A tanner. A car sales lady. A shopaholic. A beginner yoga participant. A water lover. A green tea addict. I am many things, but I feel like those are the titles that define me at this point in my life, as silly as they may seem.

My highest weight point, about 2.5 to 3 months ago, was 204lbs. That was the highest weight I have ever been, and the only time in my life that I have been over 200 lbs. Seeing that number on the scale scared the CRAP out of me. I always knew that I was over weight, but that number punched me in the face. Most of my late teen's/young adult life... I have been teetering between 160 lbs and 180 lbs. The lowest weight I ever remember weighing myself at was 158 lbs. And that was after 3 months of working a very physically demanding job, and not having enough money for groceries. lol. I remember at the time feeling just as big as I feel today. When I look back on those pictures... I LOOK GREAT! It's crazy for me to look back now and imagine in any small way that I could feel fat at that point, but I did.

So somehow, in the last 2 years, I found myself up nearly 50 lbs! How does that even happen? It's sick to think about how insanely close I was to hitting my goal weight at that point. And I took it for granted. I got a boyfriend, got comfortable, got fat. Broke up with the boyfriend, got sad, got fatter. Got into car sales, got busy, got even fatter. And here I am. Still just as busy, but I've come to a fast halt on my weight gain. I've decided it is time to take control of my life, my body, and my health.

The past 3 months I have lost 17.5lbs. I am down to 186.5lbs. 6.6lbs until I'm in the 170's again! Woohoo!! But the 17.5lbs I lost, was in a lazy, sort of unhealthy way. Not in a very focused way. I want to be focused, I want to be driven. I WANT TO SUCCEED!!

So here is where youtube comes in. What an AMAZING tool for weight loss if you utilize it properly. It is such a huge support system, with amazing people to back you up, to light up your life when it feels dark, to show you that it is possible, and that there are other people out there going through the same exact life hurdle that you are. Up until this day, my utilization of the amazing world that is youtube, has been very lose, and I want to make the most out of this wonderful tool. So from this day forward, I have a strict video posting schedule!

Sunday - Sexy For Santa Video (Challenge I am In)

Wednesday - Personal Video

Friday - Informative Video

I am now going to post 3 videos per week. I also am auditioning for One Step Closer, but I don't want to jinx it, and work that into my schedule too soon. But I am really hoping to be a part of it, because I think beyond all else, it will be such an amazing tool for me to become more involved, and to be under the public eye, will help me to keep myself in check as well. Also, I would love to inspire other people as well as I go.

Anyways, I am going to sign off now. But before I do, I am promising myself that I will post in this journal, at least some little thing every single day! I owe myself that much.

I will post another entry about my decision to try vegetarianism for 30 days, as well as my 50 lbs for $5000 challenge that my Dad has given me.

Love Skye